There’s really only one major bad thing that’s happened in my relationship with Girlfriend. I know we’ve only been dating 5+ months, but that’s seriously the only thing.
What Girlfriend did was make out with another girl. In my bed. It was a while ago, probably 4 months ago.
But I can’t seem to get over it. The girl she made out with is (supposedly) straight, and they were both very very drunk. That was a night that four girls consumed an entire fifth of Jose Cuervo in my apartment. But I still can’t get over it.
We’ve talked about it. A lot. Even still. For a while I thought I’d moved on. I didn’t mind them.
But then Girlfriend and her Drunken Make-out talked about how awkward it was for them that they’d made out. Now they’re great friends.
And I’m incredibly jealous.
The most difficult part is that I can’t explain to people why I hate Drunken Make-out, least of all her. I have to pretend to be nice. I shouldn’t hate her, but I do.
(For those who don’t read this blog, which is everyone, Girlfriend and I are not openly a couple. I’m also not supposed to know that Girlfriend and Drunken Make-out made out. Girlfriend told me, but DMO doesn’t know I know.)
Now I feel like every minor fight stems from my jealousy over this other person.
I realize how ridiculous it is to be jealous. But every time Girlfriend speaks about DMO in any way that isn’t hateful, I get jealous.
I can’t even take jokes about them. I hate the thought of them being alone together.
And I want to thing that I’m ridiculous and silly for feeling like this. But I know that if I really thought it was ridiculous, I would be able to convince myself not to feel this way. I just want to think it’s ridiculous.
Hopefully it’ll wear off soon. Or DMO will transfer schools.