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Broken up.

She broke my heart and doesn’t care.
 
She says she just fell out of love with me.
 
There’s noone I can talk to about it because the relationship was a secret.
 
I’m so fucking depressed. I hate her for ever coming into my life.
 

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Breakups

She broke my heart and doesn’t care.

She says she just fell out of love with me.

There’s noone I can talk to about it because the relationship was a secret.

I’m so fucking depressed. I hate her for ever coming into my life.

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Hey Jealousy

There’s really only one major bad thing that’s happened in my relationship with Girlfriend.  I know we’ve only been dating 5+ months, but that’s seriously the only thing.

What Girlfriend did was make out with another girl.  In my bed.  It was a while ago, probably 4 months ago.

But I can’t seem to get over it.  The girl she made out with is (supposedly) straight, and they were both very very drunk.  That was a night that four girls consumed an entire fifth of Jose Cuervo in my apartment.  But I still can’t get over it.

We’ve talked about it.  A lot.  Even still. For a while I thought I’d moved on.  I didn’t mind them.

But then Girlfriend and her Drunken Make-out talked about how awkward it was for them that they’d made out.  Now they’re great friends.

And I’m incredibly jealous.

The most difficult part is that I can’t explain to people why I hate Drunken Make-out, least of all her.  I have to pretend to be nice.  I shouldn’t hate her, but I do.

(For those who don’t read this blog, which is everyone, Girlfriend and I are not openly a couple.  I’m also not supposed to know that Girlfriend and Drunken Make-out made out.  Girlfriend told me, but DMO doesn’t know I know.)

Now I feel like every minor fight stems from my jealousy over this other person.

I realize how ridiculous it is to be jealous.  But every time Girlfriend speaks about DMO in any way that isn’t hateful, I get jealous.
I can’t even take jokes about them. I hate the thought of them being alone together.

And I want to thing that I’m ridiculous and silly for feeling like this.  But I know that if I really thought it was ridiculous, I would be able to convince myself not to feel this way.  I just want to think it’s ridiculous.

Hopefully it’ll wear off soon.  Or DMO will transfer schools.

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So there’s this girl…

I know I’ve written about boys I’m attracted to before.  But I’m dating a girl right now.  Just over four months now, actually.

I haven’t written about this amazing person because people don’t understand my belief in fluid sexuality.  I’m attracted to an individual for a variety of characteristics, and gender is only a small part of that.

This is hellas awkward to explain to people.  And this relationship is very discrete.  Only our closest friends know we’re dating.  My roommate doesn’t even know.  Which makes for awkward situations on a regular basis.

The other day, my girlfriend and I were…busy…in the bedroom.  She got out of bed, put clothes on, and walked into the living room right as my roommate unlocked the front door.

I’d moved slower and was still in just a bra and underwear.

So in walks the roommate, sees me, and just shouts my name in surprise.

I mutter “Oh, shit!” to myself, and then come up with a brilliant idea.  Well, less than brilliant, but at least some form of cover-up.

“Do you want to see the dress my mom sent me, too?”

Said while half-naked from behind my now semi-closed door.

Roommate pauses for a long time, then says, “Is your new dress your bra and underwear?”

I still don’t understand what that meant, but I say no and proceed to quickly pull the new dress from my closet and put it on, hoping that it will fit, as I’ve never tried it on before.

Fortunately, it does, Roommate says it’s cute, I change back, and Girlfriend and I leave.

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