Curly-haired Crush moved to Spain today.
She’ll be there for several months.
I feel like shit.
The best solution is probably to get drunk.
Curly-haired Crush moved to Spain today.
She’ll be there for several months.
I feel like shit.
The best solution is probably to get drunk.
Filed under The Opposite of Romance
I stopped whining and got out of here for the weekend. I went back to the town I go to college in. I stayed with one of my good friends who also was just broken up with. She’s as awkward as I am.
It was pretty amazing. We drank, and I did that awkward thing where I tell things I shouldn’t when I drink too much.
We put together furniture.
We watched 30 Rock.
And I’m so excited to go back there to live soon.
Filed under Simple Happy
I’m an emotional wreck today. I was fine, but then I let things get to me.
Last night I made out with a boy. Fine and dandy. Kissing and groping and whatnot.
Stupidly, I sent ex-girlfriend a drunken text.
Haha. Now I’ve kissed someone since we broke up, too.
She’s been dating someone since a week after we broke up. Maybe less, she didn’t give me exact time frames.
I’ve been fine with the breakup lately. It’s over, it happened. I don’t regret that it happened anymore. But that she’s dating someone else already just makes me feel like I was only a distraction for her. She was just wasting her time with me until something better came along.
I’ve never had great self-esteem. And this has sent it plummeting through the floor.
Then, to add insult to injury, today the conversation escalated and she called me a whore. Repeatedly.
And tell me how amazing her new woman is.
There’s nothing about your personality that I like.
It just brings up all these insecurities that I don’t have a good personality. I already feel like people don’t like me. I have zero charisma. But I try so hard to be a good person. And I hope other people can see that, but I wonder so often.
And she’s made me question everything good about myself.
I’m not very good at making friends.
I think it’s because I’m so awkward.
Even when I’m introduced to people, I get this overwhelming sense that they don’t like me. Or they’re ambivalent towards me.
So for whatever reason, I don’t have a lot of friends. Even fewer when I’m home for the summer.
I have no friends withing a 20 mile radius of me right now.
It makes for an incredibly depressing summer.
Filed under Lonely, My family, Things I don't like about Myself, Where I live
I’m done being angry. I’m done hating. I’m ready to move on.
I just needed some time to just be crazy.
I should go a little crazy more often. But probably not at the expense of somebody’s emotions like this time.
Now I can focus on the friends I’ve been neglecting.
Side note, I also need to find an apartment for next semester. Better get on that. Stat.
Filed under Things I don't like about Myself, What Now?, Yes