I’m an emotional wreck today. I was fine, but then I let things get to me.
Last night I made out with a boy. Fine and dandy. Kissing and groping and whatnot.
Stupidly, I sent ex-girlfriend a drunken text.
Haha. Now I’ve kissed someone since we broke up, too.
She’s been dating someone since a week after we broke up. Maybe less, she didn’t give me exact time frames.
I’ve been fine with the breakup lately. It’s over, it happened. I don’t regret that it happened anymore. But that she’s dating someone else already just makes me feel like I was only a distraction for her. She was just wasting her time with me until something better came along.
I’ve never had great self-esteem. And this has sent it plummeting through the floor.
Then, to add insult to injury, today the conversation escalated and she called me a whore. Repeatedly.
And tell me how amazing her new woman is.
There’s nothing about your personality that I like.
It just brings up all these insecurities that I don’t have a good personality. I already feel like people don’t like me. I have zero charisma. But I try so hard to be a good person. And I hope other people can see that, but I wonder so often.
And she’s made me question everything good about myself.